I have jumped back on the Stop Smoking bandwagon again. I began wearing a patch on Sunday. I smoked yesterday but I only smoked 5. I was feeling really bad about it but realized when I smoked only one it made it easier to smoke the next one. So I have to remember that just one is one too many and I Can Not have it and be a quitter. Becca it doesn't work that way. Today I have lit a butt but no whole one and am not going to smoke today.
What is different than a few weeks ago when I tried? I am working on a different attitude. I have determined that dealing with something like cigarette addiction must be dealt with like any other addiction. Ok. I've had other addictions in my life. I was very over weight wearing a size 22 and now I am a 12. I conquered the overeating challenge/addiction. I have had addictions over the years with prescription drugs and street drugs. Hey - don't get me wrong and judge me ok. I am not a junkie and I didn't do anything real bad. I have conquered those addictions. Cigarettes are no different. They must fall into the same wastebasket that the other addictions are in. There are addictions of all kinds and they all present a challenge when trying to stop. No one can do this but me. Each time I want one I am choosing to not smoke one. I realize that I probably will always want just one and that is deceiving in that I cannot have just one.
I am also making a conscious effort to be thankful. I am thankful for the addictions - I will be a stronger and wiser person from it. I am thankful for the slow traffic this morning. It might have saved me from a bad accident. (I am not a patient driver when I have some where to be - like work. Gotta change that). I will be looking for things and adversities to be thankful for. If I can find myself with a gentler heart and more thankful attitude, I think my success is more likely to happen. Having a thankful heart will make all the difference.
Here's to being positive. I am stopping smoking and that is MY CHOICE. I choose it.